bloggin routine

it has been a while since i last came back to my solitary medium because i thought i'd found another method to ease my emptiness. but as i ponder deep-depth, ther's no better place than here, where i can say watever things i wan, without having to think of anything, because this is my place, no one can control and restrict me of doing anything here.

sometimes i feel like screaming out loud, i feel like hitting my knuckle on the walls hard and suffocate myself up although it all alreadi taken place in my heart, but those sufferings do not seem to be having a halt, day by day they go deeper and deeper. all i wan is a peace of mind and a joyful heart, but minor things always catch up and stumble all da good elements that i wanted most. i duno how much i can endure any longer, but as i stand on solid ground, i will hold on to da very breath that i can breathe.

life is a cycle, yes, with ups and downs, they suppose to be evenly spreaded out but how come my circle has becoming flatten on the bottom part?