the finished journey

I think i'm done,
for the involuntarily involvement.

The string is now cut apart,
where there should be no sign of attachments,
anymore, at least, i assume.

I learnt something throughout the process,
as i begin to find "life" in me,
now i have more feelings,
now i'm not so numb,
that now i have affections.

Sometimes i would think it's best
to build some distances,
so that i won't step on others' toes.
and so others can live happily without
my intrusion, that could trespasses their
peaceful territory.

On the contrary,
i realize i am just too coward,
to face new challenges,
afraid of being reject,
unwilling to move from my comfort zone,
stagnant and yes, stiff-neck to the very end.

However,
i'm beginning to believe.
That life of mine isn't that suck afterall.
There is still room for love and feeling to fade.
And if i'm given the privilege this time,
i hope that's the right one.

i should move on,
i mean i must have,
ohhh.... i think i had.