ok i admit it.

yes, i did tumbled for that tempt.
it almost got me,
note the word ALMOST,
as my past evoked how painful it is,
when i chose a distorted path of my own.
but i got to be grateful of the past,
so that this time i do not,
plunge into deeper darkness.

tho' the entice is wide,
my eyes are kept closed n hands clasped
as i seek first the permission from higher authority
before i devastate everything again.

i'm always reminded of being special,
as God made us all special, in His image,
so i hope i can stand firm,
and not sway by the pressure of the crowd,
to pursue what they know little of.

i'm having wars between my mind n heart
each time this reoccurs in my thoughts,
hope it all will fade,
as i believe time is the best medicine,
for all that it takes.